It was hard for me to accept help because of my misconceptions of alcoholics. I knew that my drinking became out of hand once I took my first sip, but since I wasn’t drinking all the time, I thought I was okay.
One day, my drinking got out of control, and I agreed to get help. I didn’t want my children to see their mommy drunk, and I didn’t want to lie to myself or my husband anymore.
The truth is if my husband was okay with me drinking, I probably would have drank every night. He hated when I drank, so we never had any alcohol in the house. He didn’t ever drink, so it wasn’t a problem for him.
Twice a month, I would plan days where I could get away from the house and drink the entire day. I would plan my month around these days. I planned what time I would start drinking so I could be sober by the evening.
I lied about having a drink, and usually made up some excuse as to why I was “sick” or needed to go to bed early.
Carrying my secrets took a toll on my marriage. My husband knew I was lying, but I didn’t want to admit it.
I finally decided to seek treatment after one day of binge drinking where I couldn’t stop myself. I actually felt something switch in my brain, and I couldn’t stop drinking, even though I knew I should.
Binge drinking does a lot of damage to the body as well as to personal relationships. It can cause heart problems, liver disease, anxiety, depression, and death.
Relationships can suffer from the strain of lies, secrets, and outrageous behavior binge drinking causes.
If you have a problem with drugs or alcohol, checking into a drug and alcohol treatment facility is a smart decision. It doesn’t matter if you are a binge drinker, or daily drinker, it’s never too late to start a new life free from the bonds of addiction.